Bandwagon Time?

November 18, 2011 at 11:27 pm (Uncategorized)

My lovely friend Swan informed me I am going to hop back on the bandwagon with her and Karen, and I agree that it is time.

My son is 8 months old. I don’t want him to ever remember me being unhealthy and over-weight. Also, I fainted the other day. From hypoglycemia. Because of me refusing to take care of myself. Just what I need on my plate, yes?

Also, I want another baby. I want to have said baby at home, and this would be much easier with me healthy.

Tomorrow I work 12 hours, however, Sunday I think it’s time for some pictures, a weigh-in, and a plan. Do you agree?


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Yes, I do want my kid to have chicken pox!

November 5, 2011 at 12:06 pm (Uncategorized)

Recently, a girl and her blog (I refuse to name drop) decided to make a post about a group on facebook. This girl was obviously uneducated, and was just guessing about what this group was about.

She went as far as to call us “bioterrorists” and mention how CPS needs to take our kids a way. Now hold up a second. How does she have the right to make this call, when she wasn’t a member of the group? She could not see what was being posted.

The group was a way to expose your children to chicken pox. In person. Yet, somehow, she says we are “mailing pox” along with “measles, mumps, and rubella”. Now hold on just a second. I, myself, in no way, shape, or form, condone the mailing of a contagion. Not only is it dangerous, and any adult who accidentally comes into contact could be infected, but it is also a federal offense. The rules in this group even stated that we do not condone it, and if you were going to do it despite these reasons, to discuss it somewhere else!

However, this is not just a post to defend myself. I’ve done enough of that. It’s a way to educate those who believe my child should be taken away simply because I do not vaccinate.

How many people can honestly tell me what is in vaccinations? No, nobody? Here is a picture that sums some of it up:

Now, this can be hard to read. Go ahead, save it on your computer, and make it bigger. Or how about I just go ahead and type what some of the worst evils in it are:

Aluminum. Formaldehyde. Mercury. Phenol/Phenoxyethanol. Don’t know what that is? Check your antifreeze bottle. Latex.

Are these things a child ever needs to be injected with? This is without me even mentioning the cells from innocent, aborted, fetuses. That is more of a moral argument, so won’t even bring that up.

Have you ever seen a vaccine injured child? Someone who can no longer function correctly? How about one that even dies simply because they had a reaction?

I’m sorry, but I would rather have my child gain natural immunity by catching Chicken Pox then to inject him with the (unsafe) immunity that the varicella vaccination subjects him to.


Here is the vaccine pamphlet, straight from Merck, which lists shingles as a reported side effect (herpes zoster):

Here is a good introduction to shingles from an authoritative source. Note that ANYONE, of ANY age, can develop shingles if they have been previously exposed to the virus from natural contraction or been in contact with a vaccinated person, or from the vaccine itself.

Reactivation occurs due to being run down (or chronically ill for example) and from having low antibodies. What’s concerning about vaccination is that it reduces normative lifelong exposure to the wild virus. Repeated exposure throughout life maintains proper antibody levels, which in turn prevents shingles.

This tool makes it easy to search the VAERS site. VAERS is a website run by the CDC and FDA that tracks vaccine injuries. Scientists estimate only 1-10% of reports make it onto the site. You can search by the chickenpox vaccine or shingles, or rash after vaccine, etc, to see what others have experienced:

“”vaccine responses could potentially reduce concerns about duration of vaccine efficacy.
These concerns are important because, if immunity were insufficient in adults, they might
be susceptible to more severe disease, and if immunity were insufficient in women who
subsequently become pregnant, their children might be more susceptible to congenital
varicella syndrome.””

A thorough review of the varicella vaccine and its safety profile:

”Chickenpox in the United Kingdom, where vaccination is not undertaken, has had a stable epidemiology for decades and is a routine childhood illness. Because of vaccination, chickenpox is now a rarity in the USA. In the UK vaccination is not done because introduction of a routine childhood vaccination might drive up the age at which those who are non-immune get the illness (chickenpox tends to be more severe the older you are), and the incidence of shingles may increase. The United Kingdom is waiting to see what happens in countries where vaccination is routine.”

”The results of a new study published in the October 1, 2003 issue of the European journal Vaccine indicate that a higher than expected number of shingles cases was reported among children with a previous history of chickenpox—approaching the incidence rate normally seen only in older adults. Results of the study suggest mass vaccination with varicella (chickenpox) vaccine may be responsible for this adverse effect.”

“Goldman’s research supports that shingles, which results in three times as many deaths and five times the number of hospitalizations as chicken pox, is suppressed naturally by occasional contact with chicken pox.”

“Among subjects with low anti-VZV titers, the frequency of clinical infection and immunological boosting substantially exceeded the 13%-per-year rate of exposure to wild-type varicella. These findings indicate that OkaVZV persisted in vivo and reactivated as serum antibody titers decreased after vaccination. This has salient consequences for individuals immunized with OkaVZV.”

This study was done to attempt to exonerate the vaccine, but when you look at the results, what do you see?

”All of 57 vaccinees with breakthrough varicella, clinically diagnosed on the basis of a generalized maculopapular or vesicular rash, in which there was amplifiable DNA [corrected], had wild-type VZV infection based on analysis of viral DNA. The Oka vaccine strain of VZV was not identified in any of these cases. In contrast, in 32 patients with zosteriform rashes, the vaccine strain was identified in 22 samples, and the wild-type strain was identified in 10 samples.”

Here you can see some medical doctors discussing shingles presentation post-vaccination:

Personal commentary on the issue:

Related topics:

Merck’s chickenpox vaccine, Varivax, contains two human strains: MR-5 and WI-38:

Charred bits of shrink wrap found in vaccines, including the chickenpox vaccine:

“It was initially believed that the varicella vaccine would offer lifetime protection. But now we see older children and adults getting chickenpox, and it’s more serious when you get it at that age.”

Sources given by Guggie.

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Back to Planning

October 24, 2011 at 3:08 am (Uncategorized)

October has sucked, not gonna lie. And it’s just gonna get worse.

Back to planning for November? I know I can do this, so why am I failing so bad?

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The first…kinda failed.

October 2, 2011 at 1:11 am (Uncategorized)

Like the title says, however I did take the preg test. The result was…


I know, the picture is blurry, but it’s negative 😦

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One more day

September 29, 2011 at 11:26 pm (Uncategorized)

One more day of freedom, then kicking ass and chewing bubblegum. Here’s what I plan to do to help with the soda:

I am making kool aid using splenda, does anybody have experience with this? Will it come out okay? Anyway. For every single glass of kool-aid or can of soda I drink, I must drink 2 bottles of water. I plan on blogging at least every other night with water intake, etc. I know I can do this.


My lovely friend, Renee, caught me off guard last night. I was having a bad night, and I was down on myself, bad. I tweeted what I was feeling, since my new accounts are allowed to be honest, no holding back, because it doesn’t matter who reads it, if they don’t love me for who I am, they don’t need to be around with me changing. Anyway..

She replied asking ” What would you say to a friend who said these things to you?”

It’s true, if you wouldn’t say it to a friend, if you wouldnt want a friend to say it, DON’T SAY IT ABOUT YOURSELF.


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October; Better Baby, Better Mommy

September 23, 2011 at 8:44 pm (Better Mommy)

October is my adjustment month. Trial and error, all that good jazz. I have a few basic goals, but as I said, it’s trial and error.

If something doesn’t work, i will fix it. That is why I have added a new category, every post related to the “better mommy, better baby” goals will be categorized as so.

Demetri Related

  • Bath every single night, by 7pm
  • 3 x meals a day
  • No naps after 4pm
  • Read to twice a day
  • In bed between 8 & 9
  • Wake up by 9am

Mommy Related

  • Take vitamins every single day.
  • Shower every single day.
  • Tweet something I love about myself daily, with the hashtag #BetterMommyBetterBaby
  • Do two crossword puzzles a day, every day, without cheating in any way. I can however ask Ruthy if I am particularly stuck.
  • Tell Ruthy I love her at least once a day.
  • Do not leave the house without make-up.
  • No more than 2 sodas a day.
  • Take pregnancy tests on 1st and 15th. Never on an off day. No matter what symptoms I am having.
  • Wake up by 8am daily.

This may be added too, or some may be fixed, or deleted completely. If I fail, I will be accountable for it. Regardless of reason.

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Good Day Turned Bad

September 20, 2011 at 1:26 am (Uncategorized)

Today was a great day. I went t0 my step moms, where we did a crafty thing I saw on Pinterest, and then hung out, and talked for hours. That part was a lot of fun, and I loved it. I love her, and I love my little brothers.

Then the bad part came. Her husband came home. I despise him. Despise isn’t even the word for it. He is disgusting, despicable, needs to take a short leap off of a tall building, kinda guy. I may sound rude, or even violent, but you don’t understand. He molested me. Continuously. For almost a year. When my step mom found out, she kicked me out. Most people wonder why I still want to be around her, it’s not a simple situation, however, I try to plan trips where I will be gone before he gets home. Tonight, it didn’t work. I was around him for over 3 hours, 3 hours of hell.

Ya see, I feel like he won.

He got my family.

I got nothing.

He gets to see my little brothers every single day.

I hardly get to see them.

He gets to live life as if nothing is wrong.

7 years later, I am still broken.

How fair is that?

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New Blog

September 17, 2011 at 2:00 am (Uncategorized)

Yes, this is a new blog, and most of you are wondering why.


I know I seem to restart a lot, but my life has been full of drama lately, and I’ve always felt like ‘gonnabhealthy’ was created as a weightloss blog, and it should stay that.

I need something more multi-purpose, something where I can be myself, and post about EVERYTHING.


Therefore, i am here.


For new finders, here is my introduction.


My name is Caitlin Carsey. Well, almost. I am getting married in 6 days. Yes 6, am I excited? Not really. I am having a small courthouse wedding, and I already count myself as married, so why get excited over a stupid piece of paper?

I am a mother. My son is 6 months old, and is the best thing that happened to me.

I am trying to conceive #2. Yes, I know, I’m crazy, but it’s what I was meant to do.


I am struggling with PPD, and just depression in general. I am currently on no medication because of trying to conceive, so am dealing with nothing except my son to use as a drug. If that makes sense. You see, he makes it all worth it.

I have my ups and downs, as any depression survivor does, and this blog may become a place to put those.


In a nutshell this blog will have:

Demetri’s milestones, my depression journey, pregnancy tests from the 1st and 15th of every month, weightloss related posts (or weightgain if I get pregnant soon), and so so much more.

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